Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Abba, Father

Looking to God for my strength has been so hard for me lately. I want to take everything into my own hands. My dependency on Him has recently increased, and it scared me. I don't like depending on others.... especially not men. I know that God is not a "man," but in our heads we still give Him that gender because He is referred to as a "He" and because on earth, Jesus was a man. However, I have to remember that God is not the same as man. He will never let me down, and He is PERFECT. He always has my best interest at heart, even if I don't see it that way at the time. The Lord has truly been changing my heart so much this year already and I am SO grateful! Actually, just this past week He showed me, once again, how tightly He is holding me and how He is protecting my heart for me! Tonight, I have just been in a weird mood.... I am really missing having a daddy and I just want God to wrap me in His arms, pull me onto His lap and tell me that everything is going to be okay because "Daddy's here." Pray with me as I learn to place my full dependency on Him, and as I realize that He will never leave, nor forsake me!

My Prince of Peace,
You truly are the love of my life, and Your daughter is crying out to You now. Yes, come hold me while I cry. How it comforts my soul to have access to You anytime. I love knowing I am not alone in the dark. Thank You, my Prince, my Lord, for reaching down from heaven with Your loving hand and wiping away my tears. Hold me until all is well with my soul again. Remind me when I hurt that You are just a prayer away.
Your Daughter
who longs to be in Your arms always

"But in my distress I cried out to the LORD; yes, I prayed to my God for help. He heard me from His sanctuary; my cry to Him reached His ears." -Psalm 18:6

Monday, March 14, 2011

comfort. gone.

Mmmm, God.... I pray that I never expect You to do the same work in me today as You did "that one time that was a great experience".... I want You to show me something new each time I spend time with You.... I want You to make me grow, not be comfortable with where I am now! So many times do I have such a wonderful time worshipping You, and then when I don't get that same exact feeling the next time, I feel like You aren't near. What is wrong with me, God?! It is such an honor to be in Your very presence.... why do I not see that? Why is it that I expect You to give me a straight answer each time I pray to You? Why is it that I cannot let go and trust in Your timing? Oh, it makes me SICK to the core to think of the many times that I have not realized that I am talking to the Almighty God!!! Humble yourself, Linzy! If I pictured myself actually speaking to You, the God of the universe, each time that I pray... what exactly would be the first words out of my mouth? Would I still immediately start in on what is going on with me that has me anxious? Would I pray for my friends and family? Would I confess my sins? ....Or, would I just stand, and behold the Lamb of God, seated on the throne, and SING praises, blessing Your name....HOLY HOLY HOLY IS THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY! Oh Lord, the whole earth is filled with Your glory! Make me tremble. Make me fall on my face. Teach me to truly worship YOU, God, in every aspect of my life. Don't let me stay comfortable.....PUSH me to know You more. Through the fire. Through the valley. Through it all. To know YOU.

Saturday, March 5, 2011


God is my refuge and strength; a very present help in time of need!

He is my rock that I can hold on to and know that He will keep me anchored!

Though the world around me may be discouraging and the wind from the storms are trying to blow my Faith down, as long as I continue to praise Him, He will keep me still. He calms me with His soothing words and continuous presence.

He loves me, even if everyone else rejects me.

When I begin to have doubts, I am immediately reminded of how awesome He truly is!

I know that even if He doesn't answer my prayers when I want Him to or with the answer that I would prefer to have, He has my best interest at heart!

He knows the opportune moment for all things, and as long as I continue to have that Faith, He will always pull me through!

He won't leave me; even though my "father may abandon me, the Lord will hold me close" (Psalm 27:10).

I am so thankful that He loves me, even though I am so undeserving!

He is always there, no matter what!
He has never failed me! Even though He isn't here physically to wrap His arms around me and tell me everything will be ok, He has provided me with the most awesome friends in the world!

I am totally and completely in LOVE with my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ!

He is by far the best thing that has ever happened to me…and He continues to amaze me everyday with His awesomeness!