comfort. gone.

Mmmm, God.... I pray that I never expect You to do the same work in me today as You did "that one time that was a great experience".... I want You to show me something new each time I spend time with You.... I want You to make me grow, not be comfortable with where I am now! So many times do I have such a wonderful time worshipping You, and then when I don't get that same exact feeling the next time, I feel like You aren't near. What is wrong with me, God?! It is such an honor to be in Your very presence.... why do I not see that? Why is it that I expect You to give me a straight answer each time I pray to You? Why is it that I cannot let go and trust in Your timing? Oh, it makes me SICK to the core to think of the many times that I have not realized that I am talking to the Almighty God!!! Humble yourself, Linzy! If I pictured myself actually speaking to You, the God of the universe, each time that I pray... what exactly would be the first words out of my mouth? Would I still immediately start in on what is going on with me that has me anxious? Would I pray for my friends and family? Would I confess my sins? ....Or, would I just stand, and behold the Lamb of God, seated on the throne, and SING praises, blessing Your name....HOLY HOLY HOLY IS THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY! Oh Lord, the whole earth is filled with Your glory! Make me tremble. Make me fall on my face. Teach me to truly worship YOU, God, in every aspect of my life. Don't let me stay comfortable.....PUSH me to know You more. Through the fire. Through the valley. Through it all. To know YOU.